I woke up late that day, it was around 11 am. As it was Sunday, I had no agenda for the day. I was lying on my bed with no idea what to do next. I had a complete sleep after many days. I did not understand but I was very relaxed, my mind open, no more drowsiness. It was like my eyes got wider and I could hear the sound around me more clearly than ever. The rotating fan, the birds outside my window, with all these noise, there was a sort of peace within me. I stood up and my legs felt stronger. After all the old days, I was starting to feel better. It is rightly said, “time is the best healer.”
I made coffee and went to the balcony. I like to be quiet for a while during the start of the day. I feel this morning time is my time, only mine. This was never possible when I was a kid. But now when I am on my own, I have it all. The sun was vertically up throwing up all the heat it contained directly on the land. Though it was hot summer day, a light cool breeze in some intervals was no bad idea.
I was happy as I was feeling good. I thought of not wasting the day in the house so I dressed up and planned to go out. I went to a book store, the only place in the city where time flies like anything. I had a good time,”a good me time”.
Its so simple to keep yourself happy and relaxed. Then why do we tend to find our happiness in others. I was thinking if this would have been the same day a year before where I would be happy for no particular reason, I am sure this happiness would not have lasted long. When we attach our happiness with others, we are always burdened with keeping others happy even if we are not.Unless we are ready for the responsibility, I think its better to away. We allow others to decide how good or bad our day will be. Even though, you had a completely rocking day, a small dejection and ignorance before your sleep can ruin all the good moments.
I don’t know if life is a fairy tale for some people or a bed of thorns for some people, but I know for sure that whatever the situation is, there exists no one better than you to help yourself. Remember smiles are contagious but not tears.If we keep ourselves happy, every good thing will follow. So, next time, when you are relaxed and having a good day and someone tries to extract your happy time, DO NOT allow it. Be rude, let the person feel miserable, be selfish, but never sacrifice your happy time for anyone. Happiness is a thing to be shared. But if you give away all of it, you will be left with nothing but the burden of giving more than you have and also feeling guilty for the things which are beyond your capabilities.
So, seize as much as you can , share as much as you should, and forget whats not in your control.